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MY DEAR FATHER
I would like to share about my father who was a source of inspiration for me through out life and continues to be a source of inspiration for me.He was my best friend , a humble person, and a very loving and caring person,He had a tremendous influence on my life and my personality build up, I had never seen such a person in my life who loves his children so much .
For a very long time I did not have best friends, it was my father who was my best friend,We use to talk the most initimate details of our day to day life, we use to go to church together,go to parks together, go for walks together and every ascept of my life had very heavy influence of my father, Ecademically he was just a high school pass out, but he has an imenese capabilty of understanding the very complicated high tech stuff, I was amazed the quick grasp he had for technical things.
He was a very proud father, and use to tell about his sons ,again and again to whom ever he meet.,And my father was a great motivation ,a great driving force for me to succeed in my career,when I fly over Europe and Asia to give global technical support ,I sometimes think where did I get this courage and Killing spirit, it was slowly injected to me ,by my beloved father. He use to take me to his boss office Which is DRM office(Divisional Railway Manager) and use to say ,I want you to sit in that seat .,And would love to call you sir.This was when I was in 5th standard.
He use to tell me what ever he missed in life ,he wants me to achieve. What a selfless love and Neverending and just pure love. When ever I said something it was law for him, I said once in standard5th " Daddy I want to learn guitar" and imagine at that age he bought me a guitar ,actually the guitar was bigger than me and when I proudly use to carry guitar on my back ,all the colony employees would see me with a big surprise.
He never use to discourage me ,I wanted to participate in Church Drama for christmas, I was too small ,I was just in class 2 ,he took me to the Sunday school teacher and told them ,to give his son.,me a portion in drama,I was given a very small and almost negilible portion of drama, but he was excited and then he made a Prepartion for 2 days, he polished my shoes and took me on Bicycle to church .,we were the first to arrive in Church even before the organiser could come and ,were waiting for the drama to start, the Sunday schoolTeacher was shocked to see us, and then when I appeared in drama for a a very small time, he was lookingIn my eyes and was so happy and telling person next to him ,he is my son. The Sunday School teacher who spotted us in church very early ,he gave a consulation prize to me, I was very happy ,my father was even more happy ,the prize was given just for the interest. This went a long way in my life, I continued in all church dramas and became the first Santa Claus of our church for more than 12 years and the years That followed ,I got many prizes in church activities, especially in singing gospel songs.This went to have a tremendous effect on my life, I think maybe this lead to me not having any stage fear ,or fear of expressing my thoughts openly.
I was literary association seceraty in my School and then became the class monitor in college and General seceratory of college.When the I asked him "daddy there are elections in our college should I contest " he said go ahead My son ,dont worry about your studies,by then I was already a topper, he was right ,It didnt affect my academic life. When I was a topper in college ,he took a xerox copy of my mark list,and use to carry in his Pocket and show it one and all. I used to scould him ," daddy dont tell everyone".
I was told that when I was born ,he came to see me ,first thing what he has done was to kneel down and Pray for me ,asking almighty god to make me a very successful person, then he sprikled scents on myBody and prayed that lord as this scent is giving sweetness to the surrondings, make my son a similar Person who can share sweetness of life with all. And just as the scent smell travels far, let my son also Prosper and his works be appriciated in far of place.Yes GOD almighty has listened to his prayers and really made a far reaching scent.Today his son is one of the engineers working on the latest telecom inovations and giving global support to one of the world's top telecom company.Though this might appear to many as normal ,for me and my family it is a long cherished dream come true This did not happen by accident ,but due to prayers of my father and his emense motivation and guidance to me.
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WHERE IS THIS PERSON WHO IS SO IMPORTANT AND PART OF LIFE.,
God almighty was very kind enough to give a father like my father,but he didnot keep him with me for long enough to his sons succeed and be a global players, doing the latest things in the world of Telecom, Many say God willnot keep for long time something which is to dear and sweet to us, atleast in my case it is true. He has taken away my father on SEPTEMBER 17th 1996., A huge vacuum is left in my life ,and no one was able to fill it. When I come back home I always use to be so confident of my myself ,because my father was there to support me in any situation. I lost my best friend .I still remember the last days of his life, He was quite alright in August ,actually he has done the monthly ration, paid electricity bill and was doing a lot of household work and use to walk meet his friends and retired Railway mates.At that time I was working with EasyCAll ,(Paging Co) I was the technical-incharge so I normally use to come to house tired and most of the times use have dinner and sleep. My father use to push his way on me and will see that I talk with him discuss with him, he use to ask me to get married very soon, and said you don't know why I am telling you this,because I might pass of very soon, I said Daddy don't be pesmistic you will be with me even when I hold my grandchildren.,he used to show me photos so some matches ,I used to brush them aside. He has shown me his shaving bruch and said I think you will have it as yours very soon and then he gave me his watch and said I don't require any more and many more such things he was telling daily but I was not paying much attention to him, because I was thinking he is ok and we need not worry ,he was atleast outwardly quite ok.
My first realisation that my father is very seriously ill came ,when ,normally when I sleep besides my father I will put my hands on him and hug him, and I use to sleep besides him for more than 23 years.,so that day when I put my hands around him ,he has taken them away ,saying it is paining ,he never did that in my life ,so immdeiately recoginsed that he is very much ill and then within the next few days I saw gradually every part of his body was losing strength and hold, we tried all types of medicines his doctors said that it is only a matter of few months or days., then his doctor remembered me I told during the first operation that this will only prolong his life and he will be very healthy only for 6 years ,that is in 1990 so in 1996 ,exactly as doctor said his complications reappeared, "He had tumors in his uriniray bladder"I believe that these have developed due to the radiation he has faced while working in Railway steam engine.My mother gave no stone unturned to have him healthy again, we also tried Ayurveda medicine but no way.I the last stages of his life Doctors have come up with an solution to have his baldder removed and have a n artificial bag to support the body, it was a big decision to be made,if successful he will live for some more time ,but if unsucessfull it might be very unfateful. My mother decided to go ahead, The operation was very successful ,he was talking and taking some liquids, and doctors said it might be ok.During this time my first brother Anil has done tremendous service to my father and this gave tremendous blessing to him.,My 2nd brother Praveen and last brother Ratan were doing all the household support and basically doing all the odd works for my father ,I am sure god will bless them in a mighty way., My Aunti Fathima and family have done so much service to him ,that I cant forget that service,they all came from Nellore leaving behind there daily activities and where with us for more than 20days.
After this operation my father was recovering and he started recognising people ,his friends came use to talk to him and we use to tell him "daddy your friend has Ramlingam has come to see you"and then he use to cry and discuss with him, he said my worry is that my remaining sons are not settled and he was very much worried, he called and said take care of your brothers and your mother.Even when he was about to go operation thethre he called my mother and said to give money to my 2nd brother Praveen to buy books ,that is level of his concern for his sons.His condition looks stable ,but said we don't know ,it is in the will of God ,and yes God's will was to take him away from us,I was in office I got a call from my brother and he said come immediately to hospital,I rushed there ,only to find out that he has passed off and his body taken to house,I just went hollow ,vacuum was filling me .My whole office staff has been with me to my house and we proceed with his burial work.
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YEARS THAT PASSED
Four years have passed ,with out my father so much change in my life ,today I travel around the globe and strive positively towards greater success, I can literally go to any part of the world and work ,I have money to buy anything . I am married so I have a companion . Exactly like what my father loved me to be ,but he is not there to see his sons success, while I was in Athens I thought many times that if my father was alive I would bring him here and show him the places he loved to Corithians and other holy places, he would have been extremlly proud of me .Today I have so much resources ,maybe I could have given him some cure, but it is only a dream ,reality is he is no more ,only in my dreams ,very regularly he comes in my dreams and talks to me, especially on my birthday he will come in my dreams and talk to me as if he is just alive, when I was in Athens for the first day he came in my dreams and talked to me, surprsingly he still advises me in many issues. He has also talked about my wife and would tell me ,she is the correct partner to me and gave us his blessing to me and my wife.
When I came back from Greece after 6 months outside India, in the airport I was seeing a lot of people who came to receive their dear ones ,my wife and her father came to receive me, but other people in airport had their parents came hugging their dear ones, I missed my father's hug ,someone who would be eager to see me.when I was in college hostel every month just to see me and when I asked him why he came so soon he used to cry and say I want to see you., just pure outflowing love.
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